So it has been a long while since I wrote a post that I kept. I've started several, published, then deleted. Or just didn't finish and decided they weren't worth posting. But now I am ready to post something worthwhile.
I have determined that what I want in life is to be a successful artist. I don't know what kind of artist or in what way I will be in art, but art is my goal. It is what I want most in life. I have been hindered for several years by a terrible art block. No matter what, I just can't either see what I want, or hold on to it long enough to create it. But I'm done with that. I want to break that block. I am embarking on a personal journey to find the key to unlocking that part of me again. I don't know where it went, or why it went, just that it is blocked now. I will find a way to break through the barrier.
I am also determined to break my depression. As much as I know that science says I can't break it on my own, I WANT to. And therefor, I will do it. It has been dragging both myself and those around me down for too long. I realized that negativity is like a disease, and it spreads from one person to the next. I don't want to spread anger and sadness anymore. I'm tired of being that person, and I'm through with sleeping away a perfectly good day. I want more in this life, and I'm going to make it happen. I want to spread success and joy, not darkness and depression.
It may take me time. It will be a journey through myself. But I have set these a solid places that I must come to in order to be happy. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I WILL be happy. This I have set in myself to become truth. I will accomplish what I want, I will be successful.
